Today Z is one month old. His clueless parents have managed to keep him alive for an entire month! Of course, we had a lot of help--in fact, it's probably more to do with his grandparents than with us, that he has managed to reach his current ripe old age.
In fact, today was our first entire day alone with Z. Last night, Aaron took the 2:30 am feeding, put Z down in the co-sleeper next to me, and slept through my shift at 6. Unfortunately, I spent a lot of time between 3 and 6 with one hand on Z, jiggling him back to sleep when he started to stir. But I managed to get up without waking Aaron, feed and change Z, get him to sleep in the bassinet in the dining room, pump, then transfer him back to the co-sleeper, without waking him up. Aaron took the next shift, at 9, but then my plans to take over went awry--even though I got up at noon, I was so tired that I ate, pumped, and promptly went back to bed. Aaron, bless him, let me get away with this, but I worry about not taking my fair share of the baby care.
I'm still feeling tired all the time, though I stopped taking the Reglan--I figured one drowsy-making drug in my system was plenty. My milk production has fallen off, but it's still so much more than what I was making before the Reglan, that I am trying not to obsess about it. Anna has suggested fenugreek, so I'm going to give that a try, after clearing it with my doctor.
This business of pumping every three hours is no way to live, though. We intend to travel with Z, and there's simply no way to do that and maintain this pumping schedule. I don't want to give up on breastmilk entirely, but eventually I want a life again, and frankly, I'd like to spend some time with my baby, rather than my breast pump. I want to try nursing again, with the doula's help. If that's still too painful, I may drop back to pumping once or twice a day, so Z still gets some breastmilk, but go mainly to formula.
You know, back when I was reading all those oh-so-helpful books, I wondered why more women didn't breastfeed. Now I get it. The books all manage to imply that problems are rare and easily solved. Ha, and ha again, I say. :P One of the arguments in favor of it is that it's cheaper--you don't have to spend money on formula, right? Have I said, "ha" yet? Let's see...lactation consultant, doctor co-pay, breast pump I rented, breast pump I bought, collection kit for the rental pump, nipple shells, breast shells, breast pads, nursing bras, hands-free pumping bra...cheaper, eh? :P
In fact, today was our first entire day alone with Z. Last night, Aaron took the 2:30 am feeding, put Z down in the co-sleeper next to me, and slept through my shift at 6. Unfortunately, I spent a lot of time between 3 and 6 with one hand on Z, jiggling him back to sleep when he started to stir. But I managed to get up without waking Aaron, feed and change Z, get him to sleep in the bassinet in the dining room, pump, then transfer him back to the co-sleeper, without waking him up. Aaron took the next shift, at 9, but then my plans to take over went awry--even though I got up at noon, I was so tired that I ate, pumped, and promptly went back to bed. Aaron, bless him, let me get away with this, but I worry about not taking my fair share of the baby care.
I'm still feeling tired all the time, though I stopped taking the Reglan--I figured one drowsy-making drug in my system was plenty. My milk production has fallen off, but it's still so much more than what I was making before the Reglan, that I am trying not to obsess about it. Anna has suggested fenugreek, so I'm going to give that a try, after clearing it with my doctor.
This business of pumping every three hours is no way to live, though. We intend to travel with Z, and there's simply no way to do that and maintain this pumping schedule. I don't want to give up on breastmilk entirely, but eventually I want a life again, and frankly, I'd like to spend some time with my baby, rather than my breast pump. I want to try nursing again, with the doula's help. If that's still too painful, I may drop back to pumping once or twice a day, so Z still gets some breastmilk, but go mainly to formula.
You know, back when I was reading all those oh-so-helpful books, I wondered why more women didn't breastfeed. Now I get it. The books all manage to imply that problems are rare and easily solved. Ha, and ha again, I say. :P One of the arguments in favor of it is that it's cheaper--you don't have to spend money on formula, right? Have I said, "ha" yet? Let's see...lactation consultant, doctor co-pay, breast pump I rented, breast pump I bought, collection kit for the rental pump, nipple shells, breast shells, breast pads, nursing bras, hands-free pumping bra...cheaper, eh? :P
Dans la bibliothèque: Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep? - Phillip K. Dick
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